The Anxious Me: Story of my Battle to Survive

  Years of self-inflicted depression and anxiety has lead me into a dark world that I am trying to step out of. As I look back at 34 years of my existence on this planet, the chapters are filled with anxiety, depression, loneliness and stress all around with a glimpse of hope here and there.

The Exuberance of Being an Introvert Which I Wish I Realized Early

If there was one thing that used to crush my hopes instantly in the past it was seeing someone speak with such ease in social gatherings that you couldn’t help but wonder how they seize the attention of the onlookers while I have to find a quiet place in the corner to bury my face

Letter to 20 Year Old Self

This is a letter from a 34 year old ‘Anxious Me’ to the 20 year old inexperienced ‘Me’ who is about to step into a new world. Dear Anil, As you venture into final year of your engineering you see people around you discussing about life beyond graduation and giving various entrance exams/interviews to pursue

The MISSadventure that was my School Life

What is the best memory of your school life? Is it the time you spent with friends? Or how good you were at studies? Or how you used to excel in cultural activities? Every time I ponder about my best memories at school, I fail to come up with an answer and that’s simply because

Part One: ‘Self-Pity’ and Me

Around four years back, at the age of 30, I was going through the lowest point of my life. My attempt at pursuing a career on the marketing side of sports failed. At 30 people usually have their lives secured or are on their way towards achieving their goal. And here I was at 30

Part Two: Parting ways with ‘Self-Pity’ after a long journey together

In my previous article I talked about how self-pity was a part and parcel of my life. The one constant factor during all these years of feeling sorry for myself was my lack of self esteem and absence of my own identity. Although I turned to self-pity for many years, I still had this desire

Accidental transformation that gave me my Self-Identity

If you’ve been reading my articles you already know about my struggle with anxiety and depression over the years. The struggle was due to lack of self-awareness and looking externally for answers to my problems than within. At the age of 28 when I was going through yet another rough phase in life I told

Mental Energy: The Game Changing factor within You

If you ask me to choose one thing that I would want to remember for the rest of my life then it is the fact that everyone has a limited amount of energy they can use on a day-to-day basis. If you decide to choose it for the wrong reasons then you wouldn’t be left

How Sharing a Piece of my Mind Liberated my Soul

Somewhere in mid-2017 when I was starting to experience panic attacks, I reached out to one of my close friend in South Africa and told her about my condition. She was someone I shared everything with and always took advice from whenever I needed one.  Panic attack is a condition where extreme anxiety takes over

Generalised Anxiety Disorder

Learning to Live with Generalised Anxiety Disorder (GAD)

When Aarathi, my Psychologist, broke the news that I had Generalised Anxiety Disorder, it didn’t come as a surprise to me as I could sense the symptoms of GAD, which I have been experiencing since my school days. GAD is an anxiety disorder where people suffering from it are in a constant state of worry