Coming to think of your school life, what is your best memory? Is it the time spent with friends? Or how good you were at studies? Or how you used to excel in cultural activities?

Every time I ponder about my best memories at school, I fail to come up with an answer and that’s simply because there weren’t any. There weren’t any for two reasons.

a. I was a Reserved Guy:

A reserved guy who had this desire to talk to people and mingle freely but simply couldn’t. For years I was just used to giving a one word reply to the question I was asked by friends or others but was never able to extend the conversation.

Watching people around me speak with ease and be close to one another made me depressed because they were everything I wanted to be. And at that moment I couldn’t mould myself the way I wanted to be.

b. I sucked at Studies:

Mental focus and concentration were never a part of my arsenal.

My mind was a wanderlust that swayed towards dreams that lead me into a world of fantasy or I was constantly pondering about how I would spend rest of the day and so on. But my mind was never focussed on what was being taught at school.

I can barely remember focussing on the subject that was being taught in class even for half an hour.

So this was a major reason why I sucked at Studies but I somehow barely managed to scrap through my exams and academic career without having to study the same class twice.

I was born in a society that told me your academic records were everything. People constantly gave the impression that your professional success depends on your academic grades.

I fell into this trap for a very long time only to realize very late in life that there are a good number of individual out there who sucked at studies but are successful in life.

Wish I knew this in my school life and wish I had done more research about my interests early on than accidentally bumping into it at the age of 32.